today has been a terrible day for me...
the test results were released today...
i was so confident on my test....
so confident that i would pass...
so eager to see my campus friends again....
find myself in my comfortable room which i got used to....
hoping see my results with the word *Pass*...
but what i got was.......
*Fail*...
why?!
what happen to all the efforts i put?!
for what reason i went trough 2 weeks of sleepless night?!
why did it turned out to be this way and not the other?!
what should i do now...?
where should i go now...?
should i start from scratch...?
or should i pick off from where i left in the first place...?
i have accepted the fact that i failed...
but i just can't let go of the fact that i wasted all my efforts....
watching it going down the drain....
was it fate that bring me to this end...?
if so...why again...?
how did i end up in the same spot before all this began?
is He trying to tell me that this is not the path i am destined to be in...?
how i wish life was just a dream...
a process where we could make everything and anything goes according to our will...
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
holidays!!
grrrr holidays are boring.
when its my time to holiday,most of my friends school are reopening. SUCKS
which only means more anime at home.
oh yah!and i started jamming at a nearby gym to pump my body.
and what i realize was....whoa!
dang my stamina is SERIOUSLY went down compared to last time.
i just worked out for like 1 hour and i am already beat up.
talk about wipe out.
and recently cut my hair short.it is UGLY
shouldn't have cut it.
well whats done is done.no use regretting anyway~
despite all that,I NOW HAVE UNLIMITED SUPPLIES OF CHOCOLATE AT HOME!!!MUAHAHAH
and yea,chocolate is awesome!
literally made my day a little better when the sweet chocolate melted in my mouth~
and so,i think i will continue my random pratting sooner or later about some topics.
about love,friends,country,money and.....randomity?
peace out!!^_^
when its my time to holiday,most of my friends school are reopening. SUCKS
which only means more anime at home.
oh yah!and i started jamming at a nearby gym to pump my body.
and what i realize was....whoa!
dang my stamina is SERIOUSLY went down compared to last time.
i just worked out for like 1 hour and i am already beat up.
talk about wipe out.
and recently cut my hair short.it is UGLY
shouldn't have cut it.
well whats done is done.no use regretting anyway~
despite all that,I NOW HAVE UNLIMITED SUPPLIES OF CHOCOLATE AT HOME!!!MUAHAHAH
and yea,chocolate is awesome!
literally made my day a little better when the sweet chocolate melted in my mouth~
and so,i think i will continue my random pratting sooner or later about some topics.
about love,friends,country,money and.....randomity?
peace out!!^_^
Saturday, January 1, 2011
new year? new resolution!
oh yeah!!!
totally forgot about this years resolution.
well,only a few i have in my mind.
#1 Be a better person!(Less emo,Less desperate,More open,More talkative)
#2 Pump my body to shape!(Literally)
#3 Study harder!(Although i HATE studying....but its for the future right?)
#4 Be more independent!(No more momma's boy!!)
#5 Find myself a GF maybe?(Well at least until i am able to manage myself well first!)
and 6....well not the exactly most important one but i shall include in my list
#6 GET A DECENT HAIRSTYLE(Seriously need one like RIGHT NOW)
and so yeah,i just hope i will be able to achieve all those above.
but the real resolution is.....To go further beyond my limits!!!
well,limits as in like in aspects both physically and mentally.(hey i don't mean *beyond my limits* as in go crazy or change into some sort of mutant freak.it wasn't meant to be taken seriously!)
and so there ya have it.my new year's resolution.
and currently waiting for my finals result.
hmmm,just hope that all my work will pay off....
i want to get out of this country as fast as possible....why?
well,i have loads of reasons why.but now isn't the best time for me to say it though.
anyways,cheers and happy new year(again)!
totally forgot about this years resolution.
well,only a few i have in my mind.
#1 Be a better person!(Less emo,Less desperate,More open,More talkative)
#2 Pump my body to shape!(Literally)
#3 Study harder!(Although i HATE studying....but its for the future right?)
#4 Be more independent!(No more momma's boy!!)
#5 Find myself a GF maybe?(Well at least until i am able to manage myself well first!)
and 6....well not the exactly most important one but i shall include in my list
#6 GET A DECENT HAIRSTYLE(Seriously need one like RIGHT NOW)
and so yeah,i just hope i will be able to achieve all those above.
but the real resolution is.....To go further beyond my limits!!!
well,limits as in like in aspects both physically and mentally.(hey i don't mean *beyond my limits* as in go crazy or change into some sort of mutant freak.it wasn't meant to be taken seriously!)
and so there ya have it.my new year's resolution.
and currently waiting for my finals result.
hmmm,just hope that all my work will pay off....
i want to get out of this country as fast as possible....why?
well,i have loads of reasons why.but now isn't the best time for me to say it though.
anyways,cheers and happy new year(again)!
1.1.11!!!(wow even the >!< are made up of 1)
yeah!!!its a quadruple and it shall be the first post for year 2011!aint that great? =)
Lets us all give a warm welcome to year 2011!!!!
so i started off my last day of 2010 by anime-ing the whole day inside my room watching anime (DUH)
and my 2010 ended with a karaoke session in V-box sitiawan!
well,its not exactly the worst place in sitiawan but the best place to scream!!
to heck,sitiawan is ALOT better than kampar.DUH!!!
heres a preview of v-box~
crazy times indeed.LOL
then one of my friends disagree with the plan to sing and he said he wants to walk back.
fyi,his house is FAR from this place.
we thought he was joking when he said to walk back but he REALLY did....wow...
he basically ruined our mood...and we went out to search for him and he is nowhere to be seen.
so in the end we didn't care about him and went singing.
PS:we aren't heartless but he merely switched off his phone and walked off.making us unable to contact him.
aside that...
OH and i manage to scream out my lungs and......IT FELT REALLY GOOD!!!
ahhhh,finally manage to release all my stress by singing/screaming songs.
the idea is to pick with high pitches and force myself to keep up with it~
i picked songs like You're beautiful(James Blunt)/I'm yours(Jason Marz)
and a bunch of other songs.chinese mostly since we are asian (wait,what does it has to do with me singing??)
plus we made like 4 video of our craziness.LOL seriously,when i look at the videos,i crapped my pants because its too funny and lame!!!
lively groups of friends literally made my day~ =)
well,LOOKING FORWARD for the sore throat that will hit me 2moro~hmmmmmm
and did i mentioned that me and my friends facesplat one of my friend with a cake on his face since its his birthday~with Chocolate Cake~~Mmmmmm pretty costly but still worth it~xP
well after that we basically wasted like 1/2 of the cake because his face was splatted there. HA HA
and yes!his birthday is on the last day of the year~
so when the clock shows 11.55,we sang a birthday song for him.
and at 12.00 sharp we scream HAPPY NEW YEAR and push him aside~
well,at least that what we have in mind.but the plan failed bcuz we were having too much fun noticing what time it was.HA HA
so yeah,thats basically how my 2010 ended~not by a bang,but by a whim.A VERY LOUD WHIM indeed~
and as i said in my previous post....
2010,I WILL NOT MISS YOU since many bad things happened to methis last year.
now i proudly bring this time's post an end.
wow,this post seemed rather chaotic/hectic huh? its pretty messed up for me to read.hahah
since its almost 2AM now,i guess i will hit the sack now
but dont worry~i will be back soon with more post!
(anyways,who is following my blog anyway?LOL)
Happy New Year Everyone!!!!! <3(and if you dont know what that means,you should upgrade your imagination tank or take some lessons from spongebob and patrick!)
Lets us all give a warm welcome to year 2011!!!!
so i started off my last day of 2010 by anime-ing the whole day inside my room watching anime (DUH)
and then went out approx at 8.30 to celebrate countdown.
we filled our stomach first at city kopitiam and coincidentally met one of my campus friend~hahah
what a small world~xP
and after that we went to v-box.and my 2010 ended with a karaoke session in V-box sitiawan!
well,its not exactly the worst place in sitiawan but the best place to scream!!
to heck,sitiawan is ALOT better than kampar.DUH!!!
heres a preview of v-box~
crazy times indeed.LOL
then one of my friends disagree with the plan to sing and he said he wants to walk back.
fyi,his house is FAR from this place.
we thought he was joking when he said to walk back but he REALLY did....wow...
he basically ruined our mood...and we went out to search for him and he is nowhere to be seen.
so in the end we didn't care about him and went singing.
PS:we aren't heartless but he merely switched off his phone and walked off.making us unable to contact him.
aside that...
OH and i manage to scream out my lungs and......IT FELT REALLY GOOD!!!
ahhhh,finally manage to release all my stress by singing/screaming songs.
the idea is to pick with high pitches and force myself to keep up with it~
i picked songs like You're beautiful(James Blunt)/I'm yours(Jason Marz)
and a bunch of other songs.chinese mostly since we are asian (wait,what does it has to do with me singing??)
plus we made like 4 video of our craziness.LOL seriously,when i look at the videos,i crapped my pants because its too funny and lame!!!
lively groups of friends literally made my day~ =)
well,LOOKING FORWARD for the sore throat that will hit me 2moro~hmmmmmm
and did i mentioned that me and my friends facesplat one of my friend with a cake on his face since its his birthday~with Chocolate Cake~~Mmmmmm pretty costly but still worth it~xP
well after that we basically wasted like 1/2 of the cake because his face was splatted there. HA HA
and yes!his birthday is on the last day of the year~
so when the clock shows 11.55,we sang a birthday song for him.
and at 12.00 sharp we scream HAPPY NEW YEAR and push him aside~
well,at least that what we have in mind.but the plan failed bcuz we were having too much fun noticing what time it was.HA HA
so yeah,thats basically how my 2010 ended~not by a bang,but by a whim.A VERY LOUD WHIM indeed~
and as i said in my previous post....
2010,I WILL NOT MISS YOU since many bad things happened to me
now i proudly bring this time's post an end.
wow,this post seemed rather chaotic/hectic huh? its pretty messed up for me to read.hahah
since its almost 2AM now,i guess i will hit the sack now
but dont worry~i will be back soon with more post!
(anyways,who is following my blog anyway?LOL)
Happy New Year Everyone!!!!! <3(and if you dont know what that means,you should upgrade your imagination tank or take some lessons from spongebob and patrick!)
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