Time of the year!

ah yes! the time of the year!

i wonder what is installed for me. hmmm hopefully something better compared to last year.
oh and if you dont know what hapened to me last year, read it here!
but beware, emo posts and irrelevant and broken language.
i dont remember what drove me typed all that. LOL
i am re-reading the post and feeling really stupid.

oh in the midst of typing this post, my friends actually celebrated my birthday :')
oh i feel so blessed now hahahah
i basically have food for like the whole day.
cake, sandwich, carbonated drinks, ect hahahahha

oh well, i thank God for such a wonderful experience i have experienced today.
well, at least much better compared to last year. LOL
its kinda sad thinking that i never experienced this before in my life.

and i went down to ipoh on the 24th just for fun, since i cant study i thought its better to put the time in better use. HA HA
okay i know i am living in self denial okay. LOL

so yeah, although November was evil to me, but December was super kind to me. And i thank Lord for that. :)
i got a super big fluffy pig as my present! omgoshhh i loveee ittt!!
oh well, i didn't asked for it actually. just that one day it showed up in front of my house along with my friends.
and that made me feel bad and happy. cause firstly the gift was not cheap!
and i never expected i would get that. HA HA.
and yet i did. do i deserve it? :\
oh well. THANK YOUUUU!!

so okay, since its my finals next tuesday, i am gonna cut this post short. I know i haven't been around lately cause i am all around being awesome studying.
i am really hoping that i would at least pass this semester.
aiming is way too dissapointing to handle now. HA HA
tata guys, will be back on posting something after next week.

and sorry for the absence of pics
1.memory card screwed
2.no camera is with me now
3.i aint no camwhore-er anymore.
no seriously. i cant camwhore anymore. hahah guess i am too ugly huh :P
so due to my many reasons, i will just post up a random photo of christmas!

FYI, that was a handmade tree made up of MANY mountain dew bottles. amazing no?
and yes, its from an event. will blog about it soon. but now, duty calls. :)

so yeah.
HAVE A MERRY BLESSED CHRISTMAS GUYS!
what happened to you recently or in the past, be thankful and glad that it happened.
for it happened for a reason :D

TOODLES!

Getting up.

this semester have been a rough run for me.

things hit me one by one.

then all together, it all came slamming on me. 

it was so tough until at one point, i was about to turn into a half glass empty kinda guy, but luckily i didn't.

because i managed to think outside the box. well, at least that is what i thought.

everything happens for a certain reason.

for example, if you were to fall into a pit

think differently instead of think that you are unlucky or so.

think of it as a lesson for you to be careful next time.

besides in the midst of a disaster, a miracle could happen

as such, someone saw you fell into the pit and comes rescue you.

then you'd be friends with them right? 

you now haz more than 1 friend! lol jokesss

to be frank, i was never a strong person. 

i am weak and fragile. soft and vulnerable. emotional and selfish.

yet i chose not to show other people my weak side.

i am not a good person. i was never a good person.

but i try my best to eliminate my bad points.

thinking i could face the world by myself.

thought i could do it myself.

but last month, the world is trying to show me, that i am too weak to face it alone.

nothing went right the whole month.

it took me a while to stand up again.

but i managed to stand again.

for the first time in my life, i felt so weak and helpless despite the fact that i am already up and running.

but not running towards my goal, i am running away from reality.

reality is too much for me to face.

then, i stopped running from reality. turned my back to the exit.

and ran back to my goals. and waiting there, was many hands.

waiting for my hand to reach out and grab them.

but from the moment i grabbed their hands, i have felt the warmth i haven't felt for a long time.

i forgot what is the meaning to trust people, to need their support.

but a part of myself says, DONT.

because my past has been tainted with issues about trust.

and yet here i am

trying to open myself up again.

to be hurt? or to be healed?

but as i run, i hope i could finish this run i started.

i wish i had the strength and wisdom to overcome everything.

i commit everything to my Lord's hands.

to flourish or to perish.

its His choice.

enough for the emo posts. its been a while since i last did this. LOL

so Christmas is around the corner, i wonder what is installed for me this year's end.

hopefully something that would end my year abit better than last year's.

all i really want for my Christmas present and my birthday present this year, is just to be able to finish my studies and my run with God.

TOODLES

OH. NO.

shizzles. i left this blog for way too long already. i am so sorryyyy!
but right, the thing is, i have reasons for not blogging. 


as such, procrastination dramas movies STUDIES.
is seriously being a b*tch on me now.
its getting more and more on my nerves.
imagine, i am only in foundation.
i REALLY REALLY dont want to imagine my degree life. dangggg
then this came into my mind.
if a teacher can only master 1 subject, then what in blazes makes them think that we can master 5 subjects simultaneously?!


oh well, guess life is a b*tch after all.
but at least i have my sleep (which has been taken from me lately too)
for some reason, sleeping has become my top of the line priority now.
yes, more than sports and facebook and sh*ts that is a total waste of time.


so! i dont know what is happening with the world right now but i heard from SPM students, they basically are upset because of 1 question.
what is CEPUMAS??
fyi, its a malay word so beats me.
its the first time i ever seen this word, which i thought it would be some kinda fruit or vegetables or something. but turned out what it really mean is "the total value of gifts (usually of money collected) the greatest possible win in a game, a bet, and so on"


wow, sucks to be them. oh well, everyone has their sh*ts sometimes no?
talking about life, i think i have been talking about life wayyy too much in my blog. 
maybe i should change my blog to *Lets Talk About Life!*
jokess heck not!
i am not a matured person to actually comment about something huge like that.
i dont even have any talents.(i am serious)


i feel really intimidated with everyone around me. and i mean EVERYONE.
as such, when my friends says he/she was asked out by a hot guy/girl to assignment discussion
then they start to boast about it which is such a total douch if you'd ask me but yet i feel intimidated. 
TROLOLOL
heck or when i see a nerd sitting beside a hot girl, i would feel jealous too.(no offense geeks/nerds! you cool!jokes)
so yeah, now you get how easily intimidated i am?
but that is just some exaggeration. 
what i mean to refer like when i see someone playing guitar or drums or even DOTA. i will go like 

its not expression of disgust okay
its expression of how awesome they play.


then again in the end, i am still a nobody.

okay that was lame. its a mob from kingdom hearts. HA HA


so yeah which concludes this time random pratting.
i am getting more and more lame as i grow.
isn't it the other way around? hmmmmmm
anyways,
i still wonder what with guys guts of not having the guts to talk to pretty girls.

TOODLES!

HEARTLESS HUMANS

okay this topic is getting hot and hotter now so i guess i'll prat about it.
and no. i am not a racist or a countryist or whatever.
i just feel like exposing the wrongdoings of the world so we could repent from it.

so i am gonna show this video that will make you kill the one sitting next to you right now.
especially if he is from china. (no racist jokes intended)

take a look at this video.
but i advice you dont watch it. i will explain what actually happened in this video.
anyway, if you wanna watch it, watch at your own risk.
its definitely something you dont wanna watch.
and no. i am not tempting you.

it saddens me to see that we humans are THAT if heartless.
damn.
china is the so-called rich and fast growing country.

but if being rich means to end up as heartless d*cks, no thanks. i would prefer to stay poor as i am now.
i mean like seriously?
SERIOUSLY?
those people saw the little girl lying down there covered in blood and just passed her by like she is some sort of animal?!
18 people just passed her by and only 1 person who actually moved her away from the road (but never called the ambulance or anything so he still is a d*ck)
but the one who pissed me off the most is the two drivers who ran over her.
the first one knocked her down and drives through her like nothing happened.
he stopped a while, but never came down. and he speed off. i can see that the tire is peeling off her skin then she flies backwards.
the second one just pretend like its only a bump and just ran over her.
i can even see her leg snaps and blood gushing out.

is this what humans have become?
see this one. this one is more of a touching and sad.
watch it.

you see?!
even an animal knows how to love and care.
what about us humans? hmmm
no wonder this age is coming to an end.

not actually in a good mood right now after watching this.
all i can do is pray for the little girl's recovery and hope that 2 drivers who drives through her fragile body gets screwed.

and for some reason i have lost hope in humanity.jokes


chill la. i will still be the good guy :D


so until next time ya'll!
take care and dont lose your humanity.
EVER.

TOODLES!