Reminiscing the past

ah yes the old excuse for not blogging for so long. LOL

i have reasonssss.

in fact, i have been on the bed too long now.

watching MANY dramas and series. 

man its sem break and i feel so lifeless.

HA HA. 

oh well, i still Thank God for my current state of life ^^

and it seemed like everytime i have a sem break, i will always do a spring cleaning on my rooms.

it seemed like wherever i go i always end up cleaning stuffs. HA HA

i am a tidy person! 

so now i am about to prat about things that are in the past.

feelings about some things to be precise.

how many of you ACTUALLY remembered what is your feeling when you get something when you are small?

like you liked a toy so much that you'd shoot your foot for it.

and one day your parents came back home with that in their hands.

and then they give it to you.

the feeling was epic right!!

i still have my toys that i loved!

and i kinda still have it till now!

ah, all those glory days.

and i would play with it every single day after i get back from school.

bring it to the bathroom and spend hours inside there playing epic underwater battle. HA HA

i appreciated the toy so much last time that i wont look at other toys anymore.

but havent you noticed that, the older we get, the harder for us to feel that feeling anymore.

when you get something you want now, you would just go *ohhhh yeahhh!* for like 2 days and the next day *aw man this is so old school*

yeah, its kinda hard appreciating things now in this modern era.

i walked through the market a few days back, there were hardly toys sold there anymore.

last time, kids were always there crying thier butts off just for a piece of plastic. now?

they sell cigarettes or something just so they can get money to a cyber cafe to play dota.

LOL oh how has time changed.

i think i posted up something like this once right?

oh i think i do. 

well, just goes to show how lucky we are now as the kids from the nineties. 

as much as i would like to put up pictures in my blog again, but i am having problems with my camera and phone's memory card. so i will put the pictures up abit later.
surely it wont be much of an interesting photos of some plastic materials no? LOL

oh well, i am done pratting.
gosh i am getting lamer and lazier. LOL

TOODLES

Time of the year!

ah yes! the time of the year!

i wonder what is installed for me. hmmm hopefully something better compared to last year.
oh and if you dont know what hapened to me last year, read it here!
but beware, emo posts and irrelevant and broken language.
i dont remember what drove me typed all that. LOL
i am re-reading the post and feeling really stupid.

oh in the midst of typing this post, my friends actually celebrated my birthday :')
oh i feel so blessed now hahahah
i basically have food for like the whole day.
cake, sandwich, carbonated drinks, ect hahahahha

oh well, i thank God for such a wonderful experience i have experienced today.
well, at least much better compared to last year. LOL
its kinda sad thinking that i never experienced this before in my life.

and i went down to ipoh on the 24th just for fun, since i cant study i thought its better to put the time in better use. HA HA
okay i know i am living in self denial okay. LOL

so yeah, although November was evil to me, but December was super kind to me. And i thank Lord for that. :)
i got a super big fluffy pig as my present! omgoshhh i loveee ittt!!
oh well, i didn't asked for it actually. just that one day it showed up in front of my house along with my friends.
and that made me feel bad and happy. cause firstly the gift was not cheap!
and i never expected i would get that. HA HA.
and yet i did. do i deserve it? :\
oh well. THANK YOUUUU!!

so okay, since its my finals next tuesday, i am gonna cut this post short. I know i haven't been around lately cause i am all around being awesome studying.
i am really hoping that i would at least pass this semester.
aiming is way too dissapointing to handle now. HA HA
tata guys, will be back on posting something after next week.

and sorry for the absence of pics
1.memory card screwed
2.no camera is with me now
3.i aint no camwhore-er anymore.
no seriously. i cant camwhore anymore. hahah guess i am too ugly huh :P
so due to my many reasons, i will just post up a random photo of christmas!

FYI, that was a handmade tree made up of MANY mountain dew bottles. amazing no?
and yes, its from an event. will blog about it soon. but now, duty calls. :)

so yeah.
HAVE A MERRY BLESSED CHRISTMAS GUYS!
what happened to you recently or in the past, be thankful and glad that it happened.
for it happened for a reason :D

TOODLES!

Getting up.

this semester have been a rough run for me.

things hit me one by one.

then all together, it all came slamming on me. 

it was so tough until at one point, i was about to turn into a half glass empty kinda guy, but luckily i didn't.

because i managed to think outside the box. well, at least that is what i thought.

everything happens for a certain reason.

for example, if you were to fall into a pit

think differently instead of think that you are unlucky or so.

think of it as a lesson for you to be careful next time.

besides in the midst of a disaster, a miracle could happen

as such, someone saw you fell into the pit and comes rescue you.

then you'd be friends with them right? 

you now haz more than 1 friend! lol jokesss

to be frank, i was never a strong person. 

i am weak and fragile. soft and vulnerable. emotional and selfish.

yet i chose not to show other people my weak side.

i am not a good person. i was never a good person.

but i try my best to eliminate my bad points.

thinking i could face the world by myself.

thought i could do it myself.

but last month, the world is trying to show me, that i am too weak to face it alone.

nothing went right the whole month.

it took me a while to stand up again.

but i managed to stand again.

for the first time in my life, i felt so weak and helpless despite the fact that i am already up and running.

but not running towards my goal, i am running away from reality.

reality is too much for me to face.

then, i stopped running from reality. turned my back to the exit.

and ran back to my goals. and waiting there, was many hands.

waiting for my hand to reach out and grab them.

but from the moment i grabbed their hands, i have felt the warmth i haven't felt for a long time.

i forgot what is the meaning to trust people, to need their support.

but a part of myself says, DONT.

because my past has been tainted with issues about trust.

and yet here i am

trying to open myself up again.

to be hurt? or to be healed?

but as i run, i hope i could finish this run i started.

i wish i had the strength and wisdom to overcome everything.

i commit everything to my Lord's hands.

to flourish or to perish.

its His choice.

enough for the emo posts. its been a while since i last did this. LOL

so Christmas is around the corner, i wonder what is installed for me this year's end.

hopefully something that would end my year abit better than last year's.

all i really want for my Christmas present and my birthday present this year, is just to be able to finish my studies and my run with God.

TOODLES

OH. NO.

shizzles. i left this blog for way too long already. i am so sorryyyy!
but right, the thing is, i have reasons for not blogging. 


as such, procrastination dramas movies STUDIES.
is seriously being a b*tch on me now.
its getting more and more on my nerves.
imagine, i am only in foundation.
i REALLY REALLY dont want to imagine my degree life. dangggg
then this came into my mind.
if a teacher can only master 1 subject, then what in blazes makes them think that we can master 5 subjects simultaneously?!


oh well, guess life is a b*tch after all.
but at least i have my sleep (which has been taken from me lately too)
for some reason, sleeping has become my top of the line priority now.
yes, more than sports and facebook and sh*ts that is a total waste of time.


so! i dont know what is happening with the world right now but i heard from SPM students, they basically are upset because of 1 question.
what is CEPUMAS??
fyi, its a malay word so beats me.
its the first time i ever seen this word, which i thought it would be some kinda fruit or vegetables or something. but turned out what it really mean is "the total value of gifts (usually of money collected) the greatest possible win in a game, a bet, and so on"


wow, sucks to be them. oh well, everyone has their sh*ts sometimes no?
talking about life, i think i have been talking about life wayyy too much in my blog. 
maybe i should change my blog to *Lets Talk About Life!*
jokess heck not!
i am not a matured person to actually comment about something huge like that.
i dont even have any talents.(i am serious)


i feel really intimidated with everyone around me. and i mean EVERYONE.
as such, when my friends says he/she was asked out by a hot guy/girl to assignment discussion
then they start to boast about it which is such a total douch if you'd ask me but yet i feel intimidated. 
TROLOLOL
heck or when i see a nerd sitting beside a hot girl, i would feel jealous too.(no offense geeks/nerds! you cool!jokes)
so yeah, now you get how easily intimidated i am?
but that is just some exaggeration. 
what i mean to refer like when i see someone playing guitar or drums or even DOTA. i will go like 

its not expression of disgust okay
its expression of how awesome they play.


then again in the end, i am still a nobody.

okay that was lame. its a mob from kingdom hearts. HA HA


so yeah which concludes this time random pratting.
i am getting more and more lame as i grow.
isn't it the other way around? hmmmmmm
anyways,
i still wonder what with guys guts of not having the guts to talk to pretty girls.

TOODLES!