OH. NO.

shizzles. i left this blog for way too long already. i am so sorryyyy!
but right, the thing is, i have reasons for not blogging. 


as such, procrastination dramas movies STUDIES.
is seriously being a b*tch on me now.
its getting more and more on my nerves.
imagine, i am only in foundation.
i REALLY REALLY dont want to imagine my degree life. dangggg
then this came into my mind.
if a teacher can only master 1 subject, then what in blazes makes them think that we can master 5 subjects simultaneously?!


oh well, guess life is a b*tch after all.
but at least i have my sleep (which has been taken from me lately too)
for some reason, sleeping has become my top of the line priority now.
yes, more than sports and facebook and sh*ts that is a total waste of time.


so! i dont know what is happening with the world right now but i heard from SPM students, they basically are upset because of 1 question.
what is CEPUMAS??
fyi, its a malay word so beats me.
its the first time i ever seen this word, which i thought it would be some kinda fruit or vegetables or something. but turned out what it really mean is "the total value of gifts (usually of money collected) the greatest possible win in a game, a bet, and so on"


wow, sucks to be them. oh well, everyone has their sh*ts sometimes no?
talking about life, i think i have been talking about life wayyy too much in my blog. 
maybe i should change my blog to *Lets Talk About Life!*
jokess heck not!
i am not a matured person to actually comment about something huge like that.
i dont even have any talents.(i am serious)


i feel really intimidated with everyone around me. and i mean EVERYONE.
as such, when my friends says he/she was asked out by a hot guy/girl to assignment discussion
then they start to boast about it which is such a total douch if you'd ask me but yet i feel intimidated. 
TROLOLOL
heck or when i see a nerd sitting beside a hot girl, i would feel jealous too.(no offense geeks/nerds! you cool!jokes)
so yeah, now you get how easily intimidated i am?
but that is just some exaggeration. 
what i mean to refer like when i see someone playing guitar or drums or even DOTA. i will go like 

its not expression of disgust okay
its expression of how awesome they play.


then again in the end, i am still a nobody.

okay that was lame. its a mob from kingdom hearts. HA HA


so yeah which concludes this time random pratting.
i am getting more and more lame as i grow.
isn't it the other way around? hmmmmmm
anyways,
i still wonder what with guys guts of not having the guts to talk to pretty girls.

TOODLES!

HEARTLESS HUMANS

okay this topic is getting hot and hotter now so i guess i'll prat about it.
and no. i am not a racist or a countryist or whatever.
i just feel like exposing the wrongdoings of the world so we could repent from it.

so i am gonna show this video that will make you kill the one sitting next to you right now.
especially if he is from china. (no racist jokes intended)

take a look at this video.
but i advice you dont watch it. i will explain what actually happened in this video.
anyway, if you wanna watch it, watch at your own risk.
its definitely something you dont wanna watch.
and no. i am not tempting you.

it saddens me to see that we humans are THAT if heartless.
damn.
china is the so-called rich and fast growing country.

but if being rich means to end up as heartless d*cks, no thanks. i would prefer to stay poor as i am now.
i mean like seriously?
SERIOUSLY?
those people saw the little girl lying down there covered in blood and just passed her by like she is some sort of animal?!
18 people just passed her by and only 1 person who actually moved her away from the road (but never called the ambulance or anything so he still is a d*ck)
but the one who pissed me off the most is the two drivers who ran over her.
the first one knocked her down and drives through her like nothing happened.
he stopped a while, but never came down. and he speed off. i can see that the tire is peeling off her skin then she flies backwards.
the second one just pretend like its only a bump and just ran over her.
i can even see her leg snaps and blood gushing out.

is this what humans have become?
see this one. this one is more of a touching and sad.
watch it.

you see?!
even an animal knows how to love and care.
what about us humans? hmmm
no wonder this age is coming to an end.

not actually in a good mood right now after watching this.
all i can do is pray for the little girl's recovery and hope that 2 drivers who drives through her fragile body gets screwed.

and for some reason i have lost hope in humanity.jokes


chill la. i will still be the good guy :D


so until next time ya'll!
take care and dont lose your humanity.
EVER.

TOODLES!

Prayers will be answered!

hey guys, take some time to read this.
I've read it and i feel that prayers are very important.
good things are meant to be shared no?
its not written by me, but by an unknown source.


ENJOY & BELIEVE.


Isaiah 65:24
This is a story written by a doctor who worked in Africa . 
One night I had worked hard to help a mother in the labor ward; but in spite of all we could do, she died, leaving us with a tiny, premature baby and a crying two-year-old daughter. We would have difficulty keeping the baby alive; as we had no incubator (we had no electricity to run an incubator). 


We also had no special feeding facilities. 
Although we lived on the equator, nights were often chilly with treacherous drafts. One student midwife went for the box we had for such babies and the cotton wool that the baby would be wrapped in. 


Another went to stoke up the fire and fill a hot water bottle. She came back shortly in distress to tell me that in filling the bottle, it had burst (rubber perishes easily in tropical climates).. 


'And it is our last hot water bottle!' she exclaimed. As in the West, it is no good crying over spilled milk, so in Central Africa it might be considered no good crying over burst water bottles. They do not grow on trees, and there are no drugstores down forest pathways. 


'All right,' I said, 'put the baby as near the fire as you safely can, and sleep between the baby and the door to keep it free from drafts Your job is to keep the baby warm.'


The following noon, as I did most days, I went to have prayers with any of the orphanage children who chose to gather with me. I gave the youngsters various suggestions of things to pray about and told them about the tiny baby. I explained our problem about keeping the baby warm enough,mentioning the hot water bottle, and that the baby could so easily die if it got chills. I also told them of the two-year-old sister, crying because her mother had died. 


During prayer time, one ten -year-old girl, Ruth, prayed with the usual blunt conciseness of our African children. 'Please, God' she prayed, 'Send us a hot water bottle today It'll be no good tomorrow, God, as the baby will be dead, so please send it this afternoon.' 


While I gasped inwardly at the audacity of the prayer, she added, 'And while You are about it, would You please send a dolly for the little girl so she'll know You really love her?' 


As often with children's prayers, I was put on the spot. Could I honestly say 'Amen?' I just did not believe that God could do this. 


Oh, yes, I know that He can do everything; the Bible says so. But there are limits, aren't there? The only way God could answer this particular prayer would be by sending me a parcel from the homeland. I had been in Africa for almost four years at that time, and I had never, ever, received a parcel from home.


Anyway, if anyone did send me a parcel, who would put in a hot water bottle? I lived on the equator! 


Halfway through the afternoon, while I was teaching in the nurses' training school, a message was sent that there was a car at my front door. By the time I reached home, the car had gone, but there on the verandah was a large 22-pound parcel. I felt tears pricking my eyes. I could not open the parcel alone, so I sent for the orphanage children.. Together we pulled off the string, carefully undoing each knot. We folded the paper, taking care not to tear it unduly Excitement was mounting. Some thirty or forty pairs of eyes were focused on the large cardboard box. From the top, I lifted out brightly-colored, knitted jerseys. Eyes sparkled as I gave them out. Then there were the knitted bandages for the leprosy patients, and the children looked a little bored.. Then came a box of mixed raisins and sultanas - that would make a batch of buns for the weekend..


Then, as I put my hand in again, I felt the.....could it really be? I grasped it and pulled it out. Yes, a brand new, rubber hot water bottle. I cried. I had not asked God to send it; I had not truly believed that He could. 


Ruth was in the front row of the children. She rushed forward, crying out, 'If God has sent the bottle, He must have sent the dolly, too!'


Rummaging down to the bottom of the box, she pulled out the small, beautifully-dressed dolly. Her eyes shone! She had never doubted! 


Looking up at me, she asked, 'Can I go over with you and give this dolly to that little girl, so she'll know that Jesus really loves her?'
'Of course,' I replied! 


That parcel had been on the way for five whole months, packed up by my former Sunday school class, whose leader had heard and obeyed God's prompting to send a hot water bottle, even to the equator. 


And one of the girls had put in a dolly for an African child - five months before, in answer to the believing prayer of a ten-year-old to bring it 'that afternoon.' 


'Before they call, I will answer.' (Isaiah 65:24) 


When you receive this, say the prayer. That's all I ask. No strings attached. Just send it on to whomever you want - but do send it on. 


Prayer is one of the best free gifts we receive. There is no cost, but a lot of rewards. Let's continue praying for one another. 


This awesome prayer takes less than a minute. 


Heavenly Father, I ask you to bless my friends reading this. I ask You to minister to their spirit. Where there is pain, give them Your peace and mercy. Where there is self doubting, release a renewed confidence to work through them. Where there is tiredness or exhaustion, I ask You to give them understanding, guidance, and strength. Where there is fear, reveal Your love and release to them Your courage.. Bless their finances, give them greater vision, and raise up leaders and friends to support and encourage them. I ask You to do these things in Jesus' name. Amen 


P. S. Passing this on to anyone you consider a friend will bless you both. Passing this on to one not considered a friend is something Christ would do.



what we can conclude is that
1.No prayers are unanswered.
2.being able to pray is the ultimate gift from God
3.God has everything planned out for us.

everything happens for a reason.
and there is no reason for us to stop praying.
like me, even though i failed many times in studies, but i believe that God will plan something for me.
having confidence in Him is important. for He loves us and everything that he did is for our good!
our God is GREAT!

so just Believe and Have Faith in Him!

May God bless your day! :D

TOODLES!

Shattered Dreams

you know, now most people dream big. and i mean BIG.
like these days, you know what kids think of? iPhone! MacBook! iPad! HTC!
last time, we used to think of MARBLES,BARBIE DOLLS,SKIPPING ROPES,POKEMON CARDS.
no wonder the kids now getting fatter and fatter more arrogant.


wei, last time hor, we just think about how to cry in front of our parents to get their attention so we could buy some cheap-ass plastic toy la. now you dont even have to cry or even move a finger and those expensive like crap gizmo.
like "just say your wishes" from dragon ball. :\
differences is they dont even need to speak up. LOL


okay well thats not really dream, a different example.
kids nowadays dream BIG. VERY.
when they were only just 10 years old, they already started to talk about online business, multi-level marketing. stuffs i aint heard before.
and when they were only in secondary, they says "aiyaaaa study no use one la! next time i big edi i take over my papa's business!"
spoiled much?
last time we just think of how to sell roti canai or how to make milo and you talk about how you will expand your business into other continent and how to eliminate competitor.

wanna know what kids last time thinks? for me an example. to be honest, i dreamed of becoming superman last time!

flying around and saving other peoples sorry butts.
but my dreams shattered when i tried to fly off my bed saving my toy from my dog.(not really)
it didn't end well. LOLOL i have the mark of stupidity on meh forehead!
anyway, since that dream is shattered, i figured that i should get a new dream. which is to be something more normal.
Son Goku.

and then thats the time i realize... i has no muscle or super cool hair :(
annndd i just dreamed and dreamed on after that.
till now i think... i have no dream. LOL
kinda sad huh

now hor, small kids think of becoming Bill Gates or Steve Jobs already.

being ambitious is kinda good, but their dream is just to become them so they could shake legs and order people around. which is bad.
they dream of that because they dont want become poor. hmmmm kids nowadays. SIGH

getting back.
i am thinking that.. are the new generation parents have too much money to spend on? if not, why not give it to charity for a change?
spoiling your kid doesn't give you any crap.
happiness aren't meant to be bought. its attained.
geez, it seemed that these days with money you could even buy off a girl.
human degration much?

okay la enough d. i think i am slowly turning in to a hypocrite and a sterotyper if i continue to talk like that (or think like that)

what i am getting at is, dreams are meant to be shattered take you higher heights in life.
look at Bill Gates. he was a failure in high school and his friends always out smart him.
look at him now, he dreamed big, and now his friends ended up working for him.
wait, how does that connect that to what i am talking?

okay i am just sad cause i aint got no cool ass phone/laptop/car heck i dont even have branded underpants!
i feel so intimidated with everyone younger than me but getting stuffs better than me. LOL
JOKESSSS
i am quite thankful with what i have now frankly.
cherish what you have now because it wont last long, TRUST ME.

argh either way, if your dreams indeed shattered, dont give up!
instead, try a smaller dream on for size.
make sure that that dream is something you can accomplish.
and when you do, set a higher goal. a bigger dream.
sometimes you just need time to do the work.

all's well ends well. :)

TOODLES!     

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